i now feel wired too..

Sunday, November 18, 2007 1:09 AM

mayb i not use to it bahh..how i going to do to make him love mie truly..now he still thinking his ex too..i noe he damm love her much den mie.yup!they hab stead 1 year plus ler..n mie lei..1 week plus jiu break le jiu patch..i hope tis tym won't happen ever again..got one guy say tat i thinking tat he's flirting rite..mus i say nope..i hab tis illness of not trusting ppl..

he understand how i feel cux he got try b4 bahh..but realli thank fer his advice alots.now i feel wired n blur blur.i scare tin will happen again..should i leave him n dun msg him ler..he like forcing himsellf like tis.make mie feel more sad n worry..haiss..x( i noe his heart still hab her but i even can't make his heart wif mie..i hab one ex..i realli damm love him alotss. i give in n carry on be strong.no else is close to mie..so i didnt tel anyone abt it.everynite,he wil say ''break''n make mie sad n cry alots..next day wil be fine lerr but i noe he wanna mie to say break but i didn't..i don't bear to say break..
been 10 months,he decided to ''BREAK UP'' cux of muii tings n i wanna kill muiself n i like force he to stead dehss//haiss.force won't hab e happiness dehs.i do much but i suffer..i did try mui best but i get wad??
all e hurt..damm hurtt...

you mux understand tis..love force won't hab any happiness dehs..
you may hurt yourself m your lloves one much..

wad i should do??